Monday, September 6, 2010
itz been soooooo sooooo long since i BLOG BAYBEH!!! :D MISS IT SOOOO!!!
OKAE!
let's see.... as u all noe now... diz is more of my PRIVATE ONLINE DIARY.so not exactly open to all ahahaha (shhh i did not tell anyone dat i will be updating this blog again! ;P)
i miss expressing myself, so here goes....
i'm infatuated with a 30 yr old man named aminurrashid. the problem is..... he's different now. not the amin i know last 6 months. :'( itz really2 upsetting. he has no time for me now... i don't want anything to change between us. i lovee his company, the way he cracks me up.... *smiling*... haish.... but i'm glad we still keep in contact. Hopefully it will not end. i don't want it to end. i can't imagine if that were to happen. i don't even know why i'm stuck on him, when i KNOW that there are better men out there, n 1 man is fated to be mine. in God's will, i will not be blind to see what is right in front of me if he really is there. :)
School was GREAATTTT... but... I'M SICK. CB. KNN. seriously i've been sick 2 weeks ago. den i suffer from food poisoning last week, NOW, i'm sick, AGAIN. fuck siiiaaaaa..... i donne hw m i supposed to study sia.. when smeone is sick, no matter hw much u study, wat u study will not register!! mayb 4/10 will register, n that is a FAIL!!!! oh godddd....... help meeee....!!!!!!!
NOW,friendssss!!!!! hahahaha.... hmmm...... i miss my twin, my babygal, n my lepak gal. not always do i meet them... all busy..... hmmm... but i will always have my sch frens which i keep CLOSE to my HEART too!!! <3<3>
OKAE!! now i am off!! will update tml!! hopefully hahahaaha gd nite!!
===ijusthaven'tmetyouyet===
9:53:00 PM
Monday, July 26, 2010
i realize. just how much i treasured amin. he has been there for me. he's right to tell me that he might b out of my life, n i should expect that. but i know that i won't b able to cope well with it. the 6 mths i know him, nvr had we not contact once. even a gd night counts.but i don't want to admit what i really feel. i don't want to get heartbroken again just when it is already mended. i like him alot. he help me to overcome my feelings toward ezz. you may say u like my randomness. but can u accept me? we r a decade +1 yr apart. our age, i mean. for me, it doesn't matter. but how abt u?you r the one that dares to confront me straight. i salute u. same goes for u. i m d ferst lady that is straightforward n random to u. haha. i dunnoe lah...
11:04:00 PM
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhda lamer seh tk blogggggggggggggggggggaaahahahahahahahahhahahahaahahhahahappy nyerrrrrok2. letz see. starting school on 12 april. wtf. ahahaha. now fatter. geting to know diz 30 yr old man. FULL GROWN BEBEH. hahaha.. but fun lh dat guy. talk to him, cannot stop laughing one.hahahaah. watz dat? ezzly? ouh. he's locked up smewhr at d back of my head. yah. but i have to thank him lah, coz he helped me to quit drinking n blah3. taught me not to love someone too much. now? I AIN'T GONNA WASTE MY TIME ON NOBODY BUT MYSELF. yah i noe. selfish right? but it's something i must learn to do for myself to survive..toletgoofyouwasthehardestthingtodo.
2:36:00 PM
Sunday, February 14, 2010
hw sad is it wen someone said that u've changed, but u noe u didn't? hw sad ia it wen dat comment came from someone hu think he knows u just by hanging out with u a couple of time?hw sad is it that they don't reflect themselves before they judge u?no one can ever judge me except for God. even my parents have no say, i don even noe hu i m, n they say they do? they've got no life.hw sad is it that i have to keep wat i really feel to myself? it hurts me so bad. i want them to know. but.. i don't think they care.=ijusthaven'tmetyouyet=
6:45:00 PM
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
happy birthday to u... happy birthday to u....happy birthday to mamat n ezzly... happy birthday to u....8 feb-mamat's b'daetoday,10 feb- ezzly's b'daed two guyz that are precious in my life, close to my heart. enjoy ur special day ok.hehe. went out to orchard y'dae den mcpherson. with ain, idah, n fir. hehe. fun n hilarious. in d end we went to jurong. lol. funny sia.n i made frenz with a bapak ayam my age. he's funny. haha. =ijusthaven'tmetyouyet=
6:06:00 PM
Thursday, February 4, 2010
so i got into higher nitec for beauty n spa management. shoot for da moon... n now i landed!! WOOOO HOOOO!!!! been spending time with rin-ain n she intro me to her cuzzie... hehe cute....has been on d crazy emo roller coaster. haha. been played. such a fool.. been forgotten. so pathetic..but in all, i m so glad i still have my sister n my treasured friends ard. they cheer me up in every way possible. thx guys. love u soso much..!n i miss my BABYGIRL IKA SOOOOO SOOOOO MUCH!!! she better don't get in2 trouble haha love u baby! u will always be my godsister that i will treat like a kid! lol! mmuaahhh2!! go clubbing later k?? bye!!
9:47:00 PM
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
i'm so hurt by galaitam. words cannot describe how i feel.
12:51:00 AM
Thursday, January 14, 2010
hensem got sick a day ago. i think i pass him d flu! lol....kecoh kaper.. now at his fren's hse, they watching movie outside. i inside play computer.lol. nvr see him for 1 week, miss him, met him 2 days ago, nw he outside, still can miss hm.. he's yummehh!! lol!!kk but one thing, i m FARKING SCARED OF HIS FREN REMY. damn scary.! i have a big blue-black on my right arm. dammit. ugly like hell..k gtg bye!!
2:50:00 PM
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
long time nvr blogggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my computer still haven repair yte!! no monies.... can SMEONE GIVE ME SOME MONEY?????LOLOLOLOLOL....nw at my fren's crib. bye2 wanna have fun!! lol!
8:44:00 PM
Sunday, January 10, 2010
i miss ezzly. wtf. how pathetic am i?andi so swt... called me in d middle of d nite. den both of us fall asleep on d fone until 8 am... lol... but dat guy still wanna club ard. fuck sia.so again, i'm left alone as usual. shit fuck. oh well.i want pink bubbles to blow. please...
2:03:00 PM
