Friday, January 30, 2009
BITCH!!! BITCH!!!! i hate diz man!! YES!~ VENT OUT ALL FAI!VENT IT ALL OUT!!~okae now i feel better. hee. so yeah!i had a great time when slping over twinnie's crib. both nytez,nvr get our slp! 1st nite? went 2 find food! @ last walked all d way 2 j.west 7-eleven.... 2nd nyte? lepak wif twinnie,mamat,n ezzly @ twinnie's area... smilez.... until i kip falling aslp!! so lpak-ing is sooo not my thang!! hee..went up 2 twinnie's hse n watch movies all d way till 6 am den mamat n ezzly went hme. i fell aslp while hugging ezzly's leg(comfortable sia!!) hahahahahahahaha.................. but we're juz frenz n not more den dat(FYI). oh yea.im juz fucked up bcoz of personal family probs,yea,privacy... juz nd 2 get d scream in my head out..hee...
12:48:00 AM
Sunday, January 25, 2009
spent time wif twinnie 2dae...starting rather blunt...but after dat damn giler! n itz onli d 2 of us!! hahaha...we talked abt dora!! n boots!! y? syaz kip bringing me ard!!! n i wanted 2 juz sit down! den we kol each other dora n boots!! lol!! n we talked abt boiz.....n life... n more abt dora...(heeeehheeee)
but u noe wad spoils my mood??? my fucking hp!!!!! damn it sia.....!!cannot switch on!! n all my contacts r inside d hp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! smeone plz help me!!! i like u awi(smiles) ur a nice guy...but... r u realli a nice guy? hmm....
p.s: i left my fone in my bro fren's car!!! DAMN. N CAN'T WAIT 2 SLP @ TWINNIE'S(SYAZ) HOUSE!! LOVE U TWINNIE!!!
1:45:00 AM
Friday, January 23, 2009
Itz irritating hw ppl kip bitching bout other ppl. itz annoying. yea,i bitch bout ppl,but i do it FRONT of them. not BEHIND their backs. datz cowardly. kae2. enuf.. i got caught by my cp teacher regarding my hair colour. fuck cibai. u get d meaning of "i woke up late n i didn't have time 2 spray my hair,sorry,i will make sure i won't overslept n will not take it as an excuse.sorry 4not spraying my hair todae.." u noe ur lucky i didn't lose my patience.bitch.ur gonna make me lose it.4get bout dat bitch.i wasn't d onli one whose face was black 2dae. others oso kena. fucker.moving on! i went 2 teban 2 mit mamat n nia. went 2 mamat's hse n onli found papa dere.den all of a sudden papa asked me if mamat smokes. in my mind i was like shoot! but i said, "i don tinkso.he nvr smoke in front of me b4 so i dunno la. u ask him ah...(smiles)". den he went out of d bedrm! PHEW!!i straight awae get out of d house n went dwn 2 mit mamat n nia dwnstairs! wah piang..... i was stunned sia 4 a min! haha... so after i mit mamat n nia,go back 2 their hse(whr i left my bag b4hand)waited 4 dem 2 change,den go 2 ezzly's house 2 visit their garndma.... i noe!! i felt so paiseh lah!! nt their family members! but they were nice 2 me!! wee!!@ ezzly's,we slack ard n talked 2 nenek n datok..n oso their anak angkat(who has 4 children)... i played wif d baby boy!!(khairuddin) so damn cute!!! not scared of ppl! kip on grabbing on my low cut top!! hmph! lucky u baby,or i slap u seh! hahahaha. den ezzly was rushing 2 go back 2 camp. he lks so cute lah!(my secret) so i waited 4 him2 wear his shoes while carrying d baby..after dat,nia hug him gdbye,n me 2 lah(duh..while holding d baby) den nia said, "alalala!! da mcm suami isteri dgn anak gitu!!" wah! tros i lpaskan ezzly den tell him to go off b4 he reach late!(summore he got gerlfren readi! i die sia!!) den mamat n i went 2 mit syaz @ j.east(my area).solved sme probs dat syaz had,bla3....n done!!!! awi,sorwie didn't get 2 mit u 2dae... next tym okae?? thx.... so i cut d story short lah okae...tired seh...gave syaz(twinnie) a piece of my mind n sme gd advice 4her probs.hpefully she listens lah.... k,GD NIGHT!!!!
11:57:00 PM
Thursday, January 22, 2009
fuck those bitches hu told fucking lies bout us.u noe itz great 2 b a student nurse.but d nurses juz have 2 open their fat mouths n make up lies 2 get us in2 trouble. u noe wat exaggerating means? they EXAGGERATE. i hate these ppl. they're gonna get fucked in d end,idc.i hope they burn in hell.BAD. okae,i get 2 spend time wif my dearest fwen ayun juz nw! yeah!!! love u ayun!!! omg i snd so lesbian! heh. went hm wif her n her boifie.(hu used 2 b our patient!SHH!!) hahahaha.truth b told!! n as usual i feel kinda odd not having smeone pick me up,but wat d heck ryt? haa...oh wells... okae i wanna get my slp.i oreadi lack a lot of my hrs of slp! damn.25 hrs of my slp taken frm me! grrr.....gd nyte 2 me!
11:39:00 PM
i'm tired,i'm weak,i limp 2 work,i mite have crawled back from work if it's not embarrassing.i wana go 4 a massage.i wana b pampered. i nd one. so now u noe hw physically exhausted i am.i made my decision.it's time 4 me 2 open my mind and my heart n i shld stop rejecting ppl indirectly. cold shoulders r a nono.fuck-off i'm not interested lines r long gone. okae so i mdae wrong choices in d past,giving myself hopes n getting rejected. so what? i shldn't have let all these get in2 my mind.i shldn't let those guys mindfuck me. i'm such a loser. but now.. i have my mind made up. i will not let all these make my brain burn 2 ashes. i will take control of my life. i loved you. but i moved on. i'm sorry.i won't b ur door mat animore.u left me hanging,but mind you,i have a life 2 lead too. u juz wasted my 2008, i won't let u waste my 2009.dnewmewillnotbplayed.
1:09:00 AM
Thursday, January 15, 2009
i love my life..! my attachment is gg well.. though i faced sme problems..but watz life w/o probs ryt?? love life is still a bore but hu cares ryt?? lol... i guess i still m blinded by my past... but i noe i cn push it awae! i'm strong!! nyehehe... leading a healthier life nw.. :) .... turned down alcohols.... but still cutting dwn on sticks...hu cn stop in an instant?? u muz b strong 2 do it! haa... u...i like u.. a lot... but.... i noe we cn nvr b... so i shall go on w/o looking back or tinking bout it... i'll try hard...
11:04:00 PM
Monday, January 5, 2009
no drinking, cut dwn on smokes,b quick 2 get on with life n not hold back.new yr resolution made. a swear i made wif mamat. my one n onli bro love. i cn do diz,he noes dat 2. i wnt let him n myself down. =)words will stay as words. tears will stay as tears.but behind those words n tears,there's a story 2 b told. laughter will always b everywhere.but is it from d hard or juz a way 2 cover all the pain?i believe this is my life.but i will change myself so i cn b better den i m now. i willfind myself this 2009.i will know myself.
11:13:00 PM
