Tuesday, June 30, 2009
tak mampu rasanya ku teruskan..ku meneruskan...
biarlah..ku relakan segala...
walau hidupku semua tanda tanya..mengapa...
biarpun... tak mampu ku bertahan...
takkan pernah.... ku akui kalah....
masih terdamparku disini.... haruskah hidupku dipersenda...
mengharungi dugaan melanda...ku berserah....
msged him juz now.. wen i found out dat most flu cases are happening @ maju camp.. i was worried. i didn't wanna msg him.. but i just had 2 check if he's okay.
so msged him asking how is he.. haha. he said fucked up coz he's stuck @ camp for 4 weeks bcoz of d fucking swine flu. haha. n being d biatch dat i am, i mean, i m worried bout him. but d anger is present. aper lag loyar burok ah. my reply to him is,
alaa... nemind lah.. u get to mandi wif ur camp mates for 4 weeks okae wat.. best... just bear with it.. for ur own good...den wen u cn book out... go n mit ur GF sepuas2 hati... until den, go see ur camp mates BATANG2 wen they bathe lah... hehe
n his reply? "ur head lah. haha. don tok anihow..." (he was busy for d past weeks datz why nvr msg me.) <>
FUCK you lahh...i'm not stoopid aite. after ur ignorance towards me, i've had enough of ur crapz gala. really. but i dunnoe why, my hatred for you is dere, but my care for you still overpowers my hatred. u suck do u noe dat?
ku berserah. it'z up to you dude. i'm getting 2 noe ppl. n diz guy i'm getting 2 noe actually ask me indirectly wat i want for my b'dae n i only knew him for what,a week? wth. he's making d effort to noe me n grab me despite me telling him dat i like YOU. how stoopid can i be? damn you gala. i'm stuck in ur maze. FUCK YOU. hope ur HAPPY wif ur GF. i won't care dat much when ppl say dat she's onli using you n i have a chance. no more fucking hopes. i've had enuf.
.butimissyoudespitemyanger.stoopidfaidila.
12:48:00 AM
haha so went sentosa wif some of my classmates juz now n we had fun mepek nak mampos haha. supposed 2 work but hu wanna miss an outing especially wen ur oreadi stressed up wif everything datz bin gg on in their life ryte? yup!after sentosa, syed,yong2 n i went 2 burger king 4 a decent meal n we started toking crap haha kater nurses mahz... hahaha...den we went window shopping until abt 6.30 pm n i went 2 mama mamat's crib.. went back with mamat n we waited 4 almost 45 mins for d FUCKING 97. irritating sia. we both fall asleep in d bus n it was funny how i had to wake mamat lol dat guy can slp through a riot man!!
i'm glad my tummy ain't dat fat! but my arms... argh!!! k done for now. hee
12:26:00 AM
Sunday, June 28, 2009
i gain weight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stoopid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! last 2 weeks. i lost weight. after 22nd june, i GAIN WEIGHT!!! argh!! k bye.
8:02:00 PM
ku akui ku sangat2 menginginkan mu...
tapi kini ku sadar ku di antara kalian...
aku tak mengerti...ini semua harus terjadi...
ku akui ku sangat2 mengharapkan mu...
tapi kini ku sadar, ku tak akan bisa...
aku... tak mengerti... ini semua harus terjadi...
lupakan aku... kembali padanya....
aku bukan siapa2 untukmu...
ku cintai mu... tak berarti bahwa..
ku harus memilikimu slamanya...
ku akui ku sangat2 menginginkan mu...
tapi kini ku sadar ku di antara kalian...
aku tak mengerti...ini semua harus terjadi...
lupakan aku... kembali padanya....
aku bukan siapa2 untukmu...
ku cintai mu... tak berarti bahwa..
ku harus memilikimu slamanya...
aku tak mengerti...ini semua harus terjadi...
lupakan aku... kembali padanya....
aku bukan siapa2 untukmu...
ku cintai mu... tak berarti bahwa..
ku harus memilikimu slamanya...
yea. so m i strong enuf to do this? i think i m. wait. i noe i m. but cn i open back my heart? im afraid dat i cn nvr open my heart again. i mean, i can get 2 noe ppl, but cn i actually fall 4 another soul? hope fully i cn... oh GOD.... ku mohon kpdmu agar kau membukakan hati ku... n show me true love... ku tk mahu hatiku dipermainkan lagi... i've had enough... seriously....
i wanna feel love again. pure love. if this is not my time, i'll wait for it.
n yes. doesn't mean i love you, you should be mine. so i don wanna think too much oreadi. i've had enuf. i get it. i hope u do too.
imissyoualoticareforyoutoomuchbutimbeingignored.areyouworthit?imissyougalaitam.ifthisishowyouaregonnatreatme,keepgettinginnout
ofmylife,ihavethreewordsforyou,fuckoffforever.
7:10:00 PM
Friday, June 26, 2009
it's simple really. MY BIRTHDAY WISHLIST...... hopefully i have enuf money for all this!! hmph.
1) dat BAG i saw @ white sand pasir ris!! okae fine just a go out ladies bag...!! i need a bag for an 18 yr old yaw!! NOT dat fucked up camera bag dat minahs wear hmph!!
2) DRESSES!! with short puffy sleeves!! ooo soo cute!! it must b 3/4 dress or long dress!!( where can i find one?? ) n no collar!! must b those off-shoulder or low cut! okae mayb not low cut, alaaa.. the neck area is rectangle type lah!! hahaha
3) PALM SHOES!! a must man... omg okae fine mayb cute SLIPPERS 2 go with d dress hahahaha
4) HEART-SHAPED ASSESSORIES!!! necklace,ring,earrings,ear studs,bracelet,bangles!! muahahaha!! either black or pink or red!! wee!!
5) TIME FOR MYSELF PLEASE!!
6) PERFUME!! escada... damn nice... or my favourite fruity smell! adidas perfume.. pink kareh!! OR victoria secret!! wahh... d pink one! i forgot d name hahaha
last but not least...
7) for him 2 at least wish me happie birthday. dat will cheer up my day. :( :(
that's all.
imisshimsoosoomuch.
12:11:00 AM
Thursday, June 25, 2009
thx aslinda!! now aishah??? haha!! so here r sme picz from d pit! n obviously i put fotos dat got me lerr.. tkkan nk ltk yg tkder aku kann.... hahahaha!! d rest all personal!! hahah!! enjoys ppl!!! =D
12:04:00 AM
